Fucking Aphasia!

[franceslievens]

That I can't remember names, but can describe the person in detail or sing the song a certain band made or tell the story from a book from a writer whose name lies on the tip of my tongue – well, all that is one thing, but recently I start to forget the ordinary words. In the middle of a sentence I go blank and what I want to say doesn't come. One would say thinges, but even that fill-up drowns in the mush that's become my brain. I feel like I'm standing in an immense filing archive looking for a little scrap of paper and can't find it. Numerous rows of thinges dance in front of my eyes, but what they are called I do not know. "Isolatie," Mama says, "It looked like bits of insulating material." The clouds disperse. I can breath freely again. Yes, that was the thinges I was looking for. On the other hand I also feel insecure. This has been happening more frequent recently. It's like my brain is going AWOL on me sometimes and leaves me to stare in space wanting to say stuff, but not being able to communicate.

Comments

[gingerpig.livejournal.com]

David's always shouting 'noun!!!' at me. I wave my hand around and say this or that or thingy instead of a name.

It gets worse for me when I'm stressed or tired, then I can conduct an entire conversation without a single noun. Most of my friends have gotten used to it..

I have found though that wrtiting has helped, cause I have to actually think about the word I need.

But yes sometimes it's terribly frustrating...

*hugs*

[frances-lievens.livejournal.com]

I think it's gotten worse since I started writing in English... Really, English just clogs up every other language I've known before. :-)

But you're right: It's probably stress related. The whole not knowing if I'll have a job is living in the back of my head at all times. I seem relaxed about it -- even to myself -- but I guess I'm not really and then it crops up in not finding a noun.

What writing does is that it lets you use words frequently that you usually don't use that often. I had students saying to me I use too many difficult words. But I'm evil, that's why I talk like that in the classroom. *veg*